Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Missing Her

I think it's likely we all miss beautiful places we've visited. Especially when they're too far to visit frequently. The beauty of a place might be because it is beautiful or because of what we've experienced there. Maybe it is beautiful to us for a reason that we can't put our finger on but feel in our hearts.

My soul sister over at Back to Myself posted a beautiful story about missing the Swiss Alps. A place beautiful to her because it is, and because a dear friend of hers, who she is missing a lot, lives there. I think it was the way she wrote about missing her place that really made me miss mine. She writes so beautifully. Eloquent and lovely; it gets me right in the soft spots.

Well, I miss my place today. My first time to Kauai was our honeymoon and I was whole. My second time to Kauai was after my miscarriages and I was broken. Both experiences were amazing.

There is something about that island that resonates with my soul. The second time we visited, as soon as we got in our rental and began our drive north on the island, I began to cry and couldn't stop. Strange for me because I am not a cryer. I said to S that I had an overwhelming feeling of being "home". I felt like the island was welcoming me back and letting me know that she'd help me to heal. And, it was true, she did.

I love Kauai and today, I miss her.




10 comments:

mom and dad said...

I love that plan!! S and I have talked about that for years. That would be wonderful, but could we stand to be so far from the fam?? We'll see.

I dig how you understand it all. You rock.

Did you ever hear that you cannot visit Hawaii in your lifetime unless your soul passed through the volcanos of the islands on your way to the womb? That's why good-bye "A hui hou" literally means, until you return again. I might have the details a little screwy, but it's some cool shit like that. LOL

mom and dad said...

Also, giving due credit, S is the photographer... I think I only took the one of him in this batch. :)

Becky said...

Oh sweets, knowing all that you've gone through, and all that took place on your return to "her", reading this just pulls at me deeply. I can see you sitting there alone at dawn having your conversation and listening...and watching amazement right before your eyes.

I'm glad i reminded you of something you cherish so much. And thank you for sharing it. I love your writing...it's like a silky ribbon to me. Smooth and flowing. Miss you too, friend.

Becky said...

And E...seeing her video again here...now she IS a soft spot. The cuteness! Smoosh her for me, k?

mom and dad said...

You got it! Smooshing will commence! Glad the vid worked. I wasn't sure it would. Love you...

fuquinay said...

Great pictures. Congratulations on your blog.

mom and dad said...

Thanks for comin to see. I wouldn't be doing this if it weren't fer you. love you.

flic said...

I wonder what the third time to Kauai will bring? Hopefully something super good!

Malnurtured Snay said...

those are some frakin' beautiful photos.

Becky said...

tiger, i miss you girlfriend! where's ya go? love you BIG!